This latest round of chemotherapy has really kicked my butt. My original dose during 6 weeks of radiation was 140 mg once a day. This last round of chemo only lasted 5 days, but they had me on 400 mg of poison per day. I am still feeling crummy from it. I feel immense fatigue, my head is in a fog, my left arm and leg are weak and I am having trouble walking again... Feeling discouraged today, I realized I hadn't said my morning prayers. I also decided I need all the help I can get today - especially from my Father above who knows me best. I left the dining room table and hobbled over to the nearest chair and knelt to pray. A note about this chair - I have a thing with reusing, repurposing, garage sales, thrift stores... It really drives my hubby nuts. This chair is probably older than I am, it swivels and rocks, and I rescued it for $5. It is one of the two most comfortable chairs I own. Oh, and it is 1970's ORANGE. I kneel at this chair and pour my heart out to my loving Father, pleading for strength to get through this day. And pushing myself to thank him for things. Because I've learned that an attitude of gratitude will distract me from my current woes. I end my prayer, wipe the tears from my face, and I am left staring at the orange chair and the brilliantly blue pillow on it. And I marvel at the COLORS. It is sort of ridiculous but I am in awe of this chair and the blue throw pillow - their colors astound me. And I marvel at the miracle of my sight. I can see and enjoy these gorgeous, rich colors. I CAN SEE. What a gift. Of all that I struggle with post brain surgery and stroke, there is so much that I still have and enjoy. I am truly blessed.
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Tiffany Ekins
9/21/2016 10:35:55 am
Beautiful! I'm in awe at your spiritual strength! I'm truly blessed to know you! Love you Andrea!❤️
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Cylee
9/21/2016 11:31:29 am
You are amazing! Your thoughts and feelings really touched me. Thank you for turning to God in this trial and teaching me that hard things can be done.
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About MeMy name is Andrea. I'm a Mormon mom in my 40's and I am fighting a rare type of brain cancer: Anaplastic Astrocytoma. |